Tipping Point

It’s been quite a week, hasn’t it?

I’m sure you don’t need me to tell you what I’m talking about. The world as we know it has changed drastically this week. It’s on all our minds and hearts.

I confess, until this week I was not overly concerned about Covid-19. Yes, I was paying closer attention to hand washing, I had stocked up on extra provisions (including toilet paper thank goodness!) Most of my concern was for my husband, who is at increased risk due to underlying health conditions. So I was focused on keeping myself healthy most especially for his benefit. But generally I was going about business as usual.

Lessons From The Road

this morning’s view

this morning’s view

We’re almost three weeks into our month long sojourn in Florida, and the warm sun and balmy ocean breezes are working their magic.

First, I’ve only had two interrupted sleeps in the past three weeks. Instead, I’ve been sleeping straight through the night until about 6:30 or 7:00, which is my preferred wake up time. This is phenomenal in every way. Poor sleep has been my norm for decades.  I usually get about two nights of decent sleep in an entire week, and lately I’ve noticed it taking a higher toll on my energy and emotional well being.

Guess what? The “experts” are right when they say you need to sleep.

Now I realize what being rested feels like. It feels great.

Second, I’m writing easily and more frequently. I’m not sidetracked by housekeeping or errands or other stuff that demands my attention at home. I’m excited to write, which is even better. My mind is busy on the morning walk, mulling over things I’ve read with coffee (usually taken outdoors in my favorite corner of the lanai, listening to the palm trees whisper in the breeze) and I’m ready to come back and start putting things on the page.

Guess what? This feels great too.

Third, and probably most importantly, I feel peaceful. I have a sense of rightness about life in general that not even Donald Trump can ruin. This is an extremely unusual feeling for me. I am what the Yiddish call a Zorger - anxiety ridden about one thing or another. (Hence, my inability to sleep.) The origin of this current state of peacefulness is a mystery. Nothing has changed in my world, or the wider one either. Nevertheless, something has changed in me.

Guess what? Yes, it’s great.

Here is the challenge: How do I take this feeling home with me? When there’s six inches of snow on the ground, the skies are gunmetal gray six of seven days a week, and wind chills are in the single digits, I fear all these great vibes will disappear (see, I’m zorging already.) I know my emotions and energy are susceptible to the seasons and adversely affected by the persistent darkness of winter.

My Writing Rehab taught me that harmony between mind, body, and spirit is essential to being creative and productive and peaceful. After the past few weeks, I realize how often I experience life as a bundle of anxiety, powering my way through the day. I want, more than anything, to keep the flow of peaceful, creative energy that’s settled over me here like the warmth of the sun.

I’m about to take myself out for a walk in the morning sunshine and ponder some ways to do that.

Hoping wherever you are today you feel in harmony with yourself and your world.

Monday Musings from Me to You

Brand new month. Brand new year. Brand new decade.

Does that sound a little daunting to you? It does to me. My Puritan work ethic kicks in and I start thinking about all those forgotten resolutions from decades gone by. The ballet classes I never tried. The guitar I never learned to play. The web design class I planned to take. Not to mention all the things I wasn’t going to do anymore- like eat potato chips, spend money on fancy coffee drinks, buy books…

I bet you have your own list of Incompletes when it comes to shiny plans and resolutions.

But you know what? Now that I’m in my seventh decade of living, I’m learning to say I Just Don’t Care to a lot more things. Because I’m confident in the things I DO care about, and I’d rather spend my precious time on those.

One of them is my writing practice. Another is connecting with my creative community, online and in real life.

This year I’m starting a new way of doing that. It’s called Monday Musings, A Monthly Missive from Me to You.

Christmas Morning

This morning is…starting early, my eyes wide open at 3:00 a.m. There are no children here rousing me from my slumber, no eager anticipation for what Santa might have left under the tree. Perhaps it’s hormones (or lack thereof), but so many days of each week begin this way. Early waking, followed by a burst of energy fueled with caffeine, and then my motivation begins to slowly and steadily leak away like the air from a balloon, until I finally fizzle completely and come to a heap on the couch right after dinner.

This morning is…a large mug of coffee (decaf because maybe I could go back to sleep for a couple of hours) brewed in a bright yellow cup with the words “Morning, Sunshine,” emblazoned upon it.