Week's End

I've enjoyed my weekend - nothing special happened, and I suppose that's what I enjoyed most about it.  We slept late on Saturday, spent extra time in our living room chairs drinking coffee and soaking up the (almost!) springish sun pouring in the front window.  Later in the morning, we walked the dogs at the park and then came home to my favorite lunch - tomato soup and tuna salad sandwiches. In the afternoon, we made chocolate cupcakes - and when I say "we" I do mean both of us.  I figured if anything could persuade my husband to leave his leather recliner, it would be the promise of licking the bowl after the cupcakes were in the oven. 

Men are so childishly predictable, aren't they?

Today was a bit more hectic, since the dogs had to be carted to the groomer's, Jim had a concert at 4:00, and I had musical rehearsal at 6:00.  While I was waiting for Magic and Molly to be beautified, I hung out in Caribou Coffee and played with my new netbook computer, then wandered through Borders for a while, making mental notes of all the new books I'd like to add to my library request list.

But by the time my pups were ready to go home, I was tired of shopping and killing time.   It was raining, too, cold, bitter rain that was destined to turn to snow.  I had to hurry home, feed the dogs, shovel down some dinner, and then head back out into the wet and cold to a musical rehearsal.

Frankly, it was the last thing I wanted to do.  I'm the rehearsal accompanist for a local community theater production of Sweet Charity and have enjoyed it, but tonight I was tired and cold and the thought of curling up with a good book and two warm (sweet smelling!) puppy dogs was so much more appealing than sitting on a piano bench in a damp, dark theater.  But I dutifully drove to rehearsal and spent a couple of hours pounding out Rhythm of Life  and Hey Big Spender.

When I came out, my car was covered with a heavy, wet blanket of snow. 

Ich.   Several of us were out there, clomping around in the cold, white stuff, complaining one more time about the harshness of this Michigan winter and laughing at one cast member who had foolishly taken his snowbrush out of the car.  (Real Michigander's know you're never safe from snowfall until at least May.)

On the drive home, it occured to me how effectively the last two hours had re-energized me.  I was reminded once again of the restorative power of music, and the way a collarborative musical effort provides just the adrenaline rush I need when I'm feeling tired,  or down.   The life preserver at work once again. 

The week ahead is another busy one, with more rehearsals and a concert at my friend's elementary school.  The snow is supposedly short lived, so I'm hoping the spring sun will be back tomorrow morning and make it all disappear by noon.

How about you? How was your week's end?

Pounding on Walls

What is art anyway except not pounding on walls? 

This line jumped off the page of this book  last night, just before I dozed off to sleep.  At first, the meaning didn't quite sink in.  After all, I was tired from a day of working and practicing, my cheeks were flushed and warm after sitting on my back porch in the sun (yes! Sun!) 

But suddenly I understood, you could even say I had one of those Aha! moments.  

So that's what you've been doing lately, I said to myself.  You've been not pounding on walls.

Here's the thing ~ in the past few months, my life has just exploded with artistic activity.  My rehearsal schedule is so complex I resorted to printing out monthly calendars for the next three months and color coding the different activities so I have a visual picture of where I'm supposed to be and when.  I have three authors who have emailed me with books to review, all hoping to do interviews/guest posts on Bookstack.  And completely unbidden are all these wonderful writing ideas that keep popping into my head at the most inopportune times, causing my fingertip to itch for a pencil and paper. 

You might think juggling all these balls would be overwhelming. On the contrary, I seem to have more energy than I've ever had before, as if all the neurons firing in my brain are recharging my metabolic battery rather than draining it.

This activity - the playing and writing, the going and doing - these are the things that have kept me from pounding the walls this winter, a season of frustration and disappointment and loneliness and distance and detachment.  It's been art that has kept me sane.

We all need life preservers from time to time, something to hang onto when people fail us or life throws us for a loop, when happiness appears as a small speck on some far horizon, when plans go awry and the world goes mad.  At times like those, we can pound the walls in fury and frustration, or embrace the things that make life worth living, plunge headfirst into activities and passions that fulfill those empty places. 

I've been lucky to have a bevy of life preservers tossed toward me this winter.

And I'm hanging onto all of them.

How about you?  What keeps you from pounding the walls? What are your life preservers?

Black and White and Read All Over

Remember that riddle?  "What's black and white and read all over?" Answer: A newspaper!

Well, apparently not.

Just yesterday, I read about the demise of another black and white newspaper - the Ann Arbor News.  In two weeks, our local papers, The Detroit News and The Detroit Free Press, will severely limit their production and curtail their home delivery service to weekends only.

I started loving newspapers way back when I was a toddler - seriously.  It was my job to get the paper off the porch each morning, and I remember being fascinated by the look of the big black, Old English letters on the masthead of the Free Press.  Before long, I was learning to read off those black and white pages, sitting on my grandad's lap while he read me the "funny pages" as we called the comics.

It was  a small step from reading the paper to writing a paper.  One of my earliest "toys" was an old Remington manual typewriter like the one in the banner on my blog.  We kept it in the attic and I spent hours pounding away, writing "stories" for my own make believe newspapers.  Is it any surprise that I created a paper for my fifth grade classroom, or that I was the only eighth grader allowed to be in journalism in middle school?

I fell away from newspaper writing in high school - music occupied all my time there.  But I kept reading them, grabbing the Free Press off the porch every morning to get a first look at the news of the day, and read my favorite columnists - Bob Talbert, Nickie McWhirter, and then a young upstart guy named Mitch Albom (who wrote about sports but managed to relate them so well to life in general that I became a devoted reader.)

But sometime during the last 10 years my love affair with the newspaper ended.  It probably started when my Free Press carrier (no longer the neighbor kid down the street, but an adult driving by in a car during the wee hours of the morning) began throwing my paper at the end of our long driveway rather than putting it on the porch.   This meant I needed to put on some semblance of clothing before I could get my hands on the paper every day, and in the winter, it could also mean fishing the paper out of a heap of freshly fallen snow.

And then I began noticing there were more advertisements than stories, ads for cell phones and checking  account offers taking up entire pages that once held long columns of newsprint.  And the remaining news stories seemed poorly written, shorter and "dumbed down" for an audience with smaller attention spans and less education.

But of course the biggest death knell for my newspaper reading days was the advent of computer news.   There was all the news I needed to know - and then some - available at the touch of  mouse button.  

No smell of newprint or smears of ink on my fingers, but you can't have everything, right?

Obviously electronic media are replacing the necessity for newspapers.  But as much as I love my computer, I sometimes miss holding the newspaper in my hand, the crackle of paper as I fold over the page and crease it down the middle.  I miss the stain left by my coffee cup when I set it down on the pile of read pages.  Miss tearing out a favorite cartoon, or clipping a column to save in my file of ideas for stories.

My friend L. is the biggest newspaper hound I've ever known.  He's made  a daily ritual of  reading both Detroit papers cover to cover, first thing every morning.  At age 74, he's not likely  to start reading them online.  In just a few days, when home delivery ceases, he'll have to get in his car and drive to a newstand to get the paper.  I have no doubt that he'll do that, probably taking his dog with him, at least for as long as these papers continue to publish their print editions.  His dedication to newsprint shames me a bit, me and my infidelity, my defection to the internet as my news source.   All this makes me wonder where news will come from twenty years from now, when I'm 74, what the relentless march of technological time has in store for me.  So far I've managed to keep up pretty well, but I wonder if  a day will come when I no can no longer comprehend how to operate the latest and greatest gadget, when I find myself stubbornly stuck in what has become hopelessly passe.

I'm saddened by the fact that newspapers aren't read all over anymore, that even the word "news-paper" may someday become meaningless because the object it names is obsolete.   And I worry a little bit about what might become outmoded next.  But I realize there's no stopping change  progress either, that the world moves on and sweeps us up in it, whether we like it or not. 

How about you?  Where do you read your news? Do you think electronic media will consume the newspaper entirely?

Cafe Writing

Garden writing is often very tame, a real waste when you think how opinionated, inquisitive, irreverent and lascivious gardeners themselves tend to be. Nobody talks much about the muscular limbs, dark, swollen buds, strip-tease trees and unholy beauty that have made us all slaves of the Goddess Flora. ~Ketzel Levine Option Five: Pick Three

Pick at least three of the following words, and build a piece of writing around them. The form is up to you: poem, scene, flash-fic, essay, or general blog entry.

beauty, daring, inquisitive, irreverent, limbs, opinionated, strip-tease, unholy, waste

In terms of  seasons, I've always been a fall-ish sort.  I adore the flashy beauty of scarlet and golden leaves, the blustery winds that send me running indoors for a thick sweater.  And though some might consider it irreverent, I even enjoy the daring strip-tease nature provides, each tree baring its limbs to the pace of some unholy, internal music.  After all, what could be more daring than disrobing on the cusp of winter, baring your body and soul to the vicious ice and winds just ahead? 

If only I had courage like that, I sometimes think, pulling my own warm layers of clothing even more tightly around me.  Courage to stand naked in the coldest of days, to lay waste to all the trappings of life that weigh me down and leave my spirit cold and bare.  Courage to pare down to the essence of me, refine myself, and begin again.  That's what intrigues me about fall ~ the idea of shedding the old, no matter how glorious and beautiful, to allow for regrowth in new, unforseen directions.  For humans, that process is complex and consuming, while the earth does it effortlessly, year after year.  

Perhaps someday I'll learn to do it, too.

for March/April Cafe Writing, In the Garden

A Moment's Pause

Amidst all the crazy busy-ness of my life over the past few days, the news of Natasha Richardson's death certainly gave me a moment's pause.  A freak accident, seemingly inconsequential, and in a few days the life of a vibrant and successful woman is over.  Looking at her smiling face in photos on the internet and television was a harsh reminder of the way in which life can change in an instant, all our hopes and dreams whisked away.   And I was reminded of another loss, another beautiful, talented young woman, a high school student I knew only too briefly, whose life was taken by a drunk driver on St. Patrick's day, 2001.  I had stopped to glance at her photo just the other day, when I was at school waiting for rehearsal to begin, remembering her pure soprano voice and graceful poise. Cruising down the expressway last night on my way to (yet another!) rehearsal, I looked into my rearview mirror and found it filled with the most spectacular view of the sun setting in a spectrum of apricot and turquoise.  I wanted to stop, turn around, and just let myself fall into that gorgeous sight, breathe in the stillness of that eternal process, the sun rising and setting each day, going about its beautiful business, while we rush madly about on the earth. 

But  I drove on, in a hurry as always to get to the next thing, do the next task, perform the next piece.

If you have a chance today, stop for a moment an admire something of beauty. 

Stop for a moment and enjoy this dance of life.